I am a Television Organization-Makeover Programming Junkie. I have been addicted to these types of shows for about 14 months now. I cannot let a day go by without watching 'neat', 'Clean House', 'Clean Sweep' or 'Mission Organization'. I must, yes must, watch at least one episode of one of those shows to get through the day...
I am actually sitting on my couch, watching 'Clean House', and allowing my behind to widen into the shape of the cushion, with a basket full of clean clothes waiting to be folded, with the majority of the house picked up and ready for the Cleaning Lady tomorrow. There are many toys that need to come out of the family room and be put back into the playroom. there are tools on my counter that BB needs to take and put away in the shop or the shed. The cat litter is cleaned, and the trash is mostly gathered and into the bin for pick-up tomorrow, so it is not as though I have not been productive, or that I am simply loafing or slacking. I have even started sorting and pricing items for our garage sale that is coming up on the 11th and 12th, and am simply going to have to be ruthless and go through my closet and dresser, and REALLY TRULY let things go. I have clothing that has been hanging in my closet since prior to my marriage...that I haven't fit in for several years before I even met BB...and that to me says it is time to let it go.
I now have to find the time to take things out, try them on with the appropriate undergarments (such as, GASP! pantyhose or a slip) and really truly let them go...I am wondering if it would be better to put some items on E-Bay or find a good consignment store for things...
You see, my addiction stems from the need to be like my mother...even though she has never said anything to make me feel inferior, or degraded, or any other negative word, I feel the need to be better than my mom and MIL...I somehow think that watching other people air their junk on television, and go through the process of getting rid of things, selling things, and having meltdowns will make my home that much better...Actually, I tell myself that I will be inspired and find some great system for me...the reality is that I sit here and tell myself "My house is not that bad" as if it makes things better that I have my own clutter to deal with...
Someday I will get to the place where I don't feel the need to hold onto things "just because"...
but for now, I'm going to eat some lunch and fold laundry...
2 comments:
I am sooo bad at holding on to things. It's a genetic trait. I swear.
I take the advice, if I haven't worn it for over a year, then give to goodwill, eh?
Except get rid of the pantyhose if they are the drugstore brand. You will fall in love with the higher end hosiery. THey might cost more at first, but last so much longer. Make my outfits look better and get more compliments on my legs.
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