August 26, 2014

Gotta Go Back...Back to School Again...

Yes...I just quoted a line from Grease 2...hee hee...

Alright, it's been quite a long while since I last posted something...it's been a crazy summer (and yes, in my head, I just drew cartoon characters and John Cusack was narrating).

My kiddos are now all officially into the 2014-15 school year.  For the record, I detest the fact that we start school in the middle of August and still don't get out until the week of Memorial Day...and please, don't try to tell my all the why's and wherefore's behind it...I just don't like it.

This year, Captain is a 3rd grader and is already quite the expert on our school: where to go, the best route from the cafeteria to the playground, which scooters in PE are the best to use...He's a little nervous as this will be his first year of standardized test participation.  I'm not certain why his teacher felt the need to explain and mention this little tidbit on the FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL...but she did, and my sweet little guy was sick to his stomach over the idea of representing his school in such a manner.  He's excited becuase this year...this year he gets (drumroll, please!) a PLANNER!!!!!!  He actually brought it home yesterday and was so proud to show me how he wrote down his homework, and had already scrawled his name and phone number in the appropriate location.  His assignments:  "Read 30 mintes" and "Get planner sind"...While the English geek in me is cringing over his spelling and pitifully poor handwriting, the Mama in me is doing a fist pump about the fact that he decided his weekly goal was to actually read "at least 45 minutes each day"...we chatted about using it for things at home, and our extracurricular activities such as AWANA and swimming classes, notes about other things and how this is a great tool to use now, while he's only needing to track a few things, rather than waiting until he's in High School or beyond.  We also talked about the fact that this Planner is his responsibility.  Not mine, not BB's - his.  If he doesn't write down all the homework assignments, he won't get credit, which will mean bad grades, and struggling to keep up with his class.  He is also already working ahead - his "All About Me" bag was assigned last Friday, due this coming Friday.  He turned it in yesterday.  It's hard to believe my sweet little smiley, snuggly, precious baby boy for whom we waited and prayed and cried so long is such a little man...but I'm proud of his abilities and the way he's already tuning into his gifts and abilities and honing them - God is working in this little boy, and I pray that BB and I will be able to guide him along the path and that he'll be an amazing man of God...

Princess is a 1st grader...gone all day, every day.  She gets to eat lunch at school (a huge deal, mind you), and is already the recipient of a Citizenship Superstar award - earned because she helped clean up a mess she didn't make.  She did, however, mention that she was "bored-ed" on the 2nd day of school because she thought that 1st grade meant learning.  Not learning rules.  Just learning...My fierce competitor, my compassionate, creative, gorgeous Daddy's girl makes my heart melt...she's protective and imaginative.  She's also wicked smart.  I pray her teacher (a 2nd year teacher and a new mom) will be able to provide enough opportunities for her to be a hands-on helper and challenge her academically.  I also pray this darling girl will retain her compassion and love of helping others, and continue to exhibit selflessness and generosity as she grows into the woman God is calling her to be.

And Littlest One...who is definitely NOT little anymore...started Pre-K this morning.  3 days each week wherein she'll be learning to read and cut and draw and glue...she was so excited to see her teacher this morning I don't think she even knew I'd left.  It tugged at my heart a little bit - that moment of seeing your kids as the independent, competent people you desire them to be is awesome...until you realize that they're only 4!  She's my sassy, energetic, determined, daring, funny, dramatic baby girl.  I eagerly await the day she sees her abilities and talents and channels them into what she's passionate about, not just what her older siblings love.  She's also the one I know will bring the most challenges to me - she IS me...and I pray that I'll be able to use the experiences I had to help her grow into her own - that she'll be open to the wisdom I have, and will see how alike we are and allow that to help her, not hinder her.

This Thursday will be my first morning without ANY kids since June 2006.  Right now, it is a heady thought - 3 hours with no one asking for anything or demanding my attention.  3 hours of uninterrupted time to do anything I want...but then I realize that I'll be alone for 3 hours each week...3 entire hours.  180 minutes.  By myself...and it's daunting and depressing.

It's funny how this year, I feel as though I'm going back to school - getting a small opportunity to relearn myself.  To get to delve into who I am, now that I'm almost a decade into the role of Mother, almost 15 years into the role of Wife...to have time to accomplish things that may or may not have any direct benefit to the appearance of myself, my house, or my family.  That may or may not be completely selfish...That may or may not be practical, or efficient, or even wise...


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