May 05, 2009

One Down...

Well...the hearing test went really well.

She was pleased. He had responses appropriate for his age, and wasn't shy with her at all. Captain Chaos has high levels of negative pressure in his right ear.

We are waiting for a call from the Pediatrician's office to talk follow-up with him. She wants us to think about an ENT visit. We'll still see the Speech Pathologist.

On the upside (I'll explain that shortly), our insurance has amazing benefit coverage for speech therapy. We can see the audiologist for check-up tests as needed once a diagnosis in confirmed. A visit to the ENT may not be necessary depending on what our Pediatrician says.

Now...let me explain...it is not that I wanted there to be something wrong with Captain Chaos' ears, or a hearing impairment. I know all the issues that arise as the years go by with those type of things...I have a friend who is married to a man with hearing impairment, and I love watching them talk to each other with their hands and bodies...Sign language is amazing and beautiful, and I could totally enjoy having to learn it...as long as it wasn't because I had to because of my child. It is not that I want there to be something other than time causing speech issues.

I just want an answer. I obviously do not do well with waiting, with uncertainty. I knew I was a control-freak, but never knew just how much of one I am.

Since we got the "go see these people" from the doctor last week, I've been a bundle of raw energy, raw nerves, short temper and lots and lots of sarcasm...I've cleaned 6 of the 15 rooms in my house, from top to bottom, inside and out, scrubbed, polished, organized, purged, folded, fluffed, snapped, vacuumed, mopped, washed, dried...telling myself I just had to make it until this morning.

Now that the hearing test has come and gone and we are, once again, in the waiting stage, I am, once again, a mess of jittery nerves, my mind racing to a million and one places in less than a second...y0u know...when you feel like you've had an overload of food and drink that makes you crazy? Too much sugar, too much chocolate, too much caffeine...not enough sleep...slap-happy, we used to call it when I was in High School...giggly over nothing, crying over nothing...everything is either hilarious or earth-shattering.

The benefits of these moods are there - evidenced by the shining office, guest room, bathrooms, and kitchen...by the clean clothes in all our drawers and closets...by the full cookie jar...by the freezer full of casseroles and other goodies...by the crisp, knife-edge creases in BB's shirts and trousers, hanging in our closet in color order...by the fresh linens waiting to go on our beds...by the new CFL bulbs in our light fixtures...by the spotless front and back doors...no finger or nose prints from children or pets...by the dog, who is groomed to shining smoothness...by the cats, whose coats are free of tangles, and dander...by the yard, which is free of crab-grass, dandelions, and other weeds, including the clover that our neighbors don't seem to realize is a weed and not a "fun plant"...because I've done it all, jumping from one task to the next...baking cookies and ironing shirts...did you know I can iron a shirt in 67 seconds, with those knife-edge creases? I can...I timed myself...seriously started and stopped a stop-watch while I ironed a shirt...as in, started watch, laid out shirt, ironed shirt completely, hung on hanger, and stopped watch...I can also change a dirty diaper on a wiggling 15-month old in 92 seconds...

Today, I'm going to see how many carrots I can grate by hand in a minute...because if I don't do something with this energy I may very well go crazy...

And, for the record...I have been using some of my time to actually exercise...focusing on a DVD for 30 minutes or more has been utterly calming. Never in my life have I been so incredibly glad for a Yoga workout...how calming it is to listen to the voice of the narrator, the soft sounds of music or wind, or waves, and surrender yourself to the asanas of the workout...focusing on your movements, deliberate, targeted, focused...to feel the muscles stretch, your body loosen...

In fact...I'm going to put in a load of laundry, and vacuum the family room, wash the kitchen floor, clean up myself, make lunch, get the kids some activity so they wear themselves out, and then I'm off to a quick appointment for myself at Starschmuck's for coffee...BB works late tonight...I'll be enjoying a laid back afternoon and evening with the kids, and will put in a DVD after bedtime...before BB gets home...

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