Well, after my little pity party about this weekend, I am feeling much better, thanks in part to Swiss Miss brand Hot Chocolate mix (all that I could find that was just plain old hot cocoa, seriously, who really drinks dark chocolate hot cocoa that buys it from Wal-Mart?), several giant Tootsie Rolls, and 3 Reese's Peanut Butter Cups.
The other part is thanks to watching the election coverage last night. Not that I'm particularly thrilled with the entire outcome, BUT, I am thankful that my husband and I live where we do, that he has a job that shouldn't be affected by any new budgets that may be passed by the federal government next spring, and that we are healthy, have a roof over our heads, functioning vehicles, and food in our pantry and fridge. We have our utilities working, and, most importantly, we aren't stupid enough to do drugs, refinance at a subprime rate on a loan that has any words like "adjustable", "variable", or "balloon"...
I am feeling physically yucky today...I think that BB shared (or else Captain Chaos did)...I am congested, my throat hurts like the dickens, and I'm just flat out exhausted. I am also prayerful that the strange cramps and twinges are just PMS...
I know that sounds odd, but let me remind you that Tiny Princess is only 9 1/2 months old. I am not ready to be pregnant again, and I know without a doubt that BB would flip out if we were.
That being said, keep that to yourselves, as I'm not so sure that I'm not...but I have to wait another week from today to take a test and get an accurate result.
I had my visit with my doctor last Thursday, and everything checks out. No cysts or polyps that she could find, no reason to do any blood work, no indications that more than the in-office ultrasound was needed...I didn't even have to go in a cup! However, she sent me on my way with the fabulous instructions "Wait 2 weeks from the last time you had unprotected intercourse (don't you love how they can make it sound so clinical?), and then take a test. If it comes back negative, take this progesterone and call me if nothing happens within 48 hours after the last dose. Call me if the test comes back positive." And then she smiled and walked out the door.
We are now halfway through the 14 days...and the best part? We leave in 15. Which means that if I'm pregnant, I won't get a test result back until the day before we leave for Oregon. Which means I'll be at my in-laws, trying not to let on that we're having another baby (I'll explain that comment shortly), and hoping like all get-out that I don't have any morning sickness. If I'm not pregnant, then I get to spend the first 10 days of our trip trying to take a pill at the same time every day without making a big deal about it, and will get to spend the last 6 days of our trip having my first cycle since Tiny Princess was born, which means it will be hideous, and that is just not what I want to go through while we're there...
OK - I would not have an issue having another baby. Just not ready mentally for it yet.
MIL and FIL, upon our announcement of being pregnant with Tiny Princess, didn't say congratulations, or anything happy or excited about another grandbaby. Their words were, and I quote "Guess you haven't figured out what causes that yet, huh?" Yeah, not so touchy-feely and warm-fuzzy...BIL & SIL were not much better, telling us that we were crazy and stupid to have them so close together. After all, their kids are 4 years apart, and that was hard enough. That was, without a doubt, the crappiest vacation I have ever had. We were in California for BB's nephew's high school graduation, and it was hot, loud, and all his family did was complain the entire time we were there. Add to that morning sickness that was totally random in when it struck me, a lousy hotel, and bickering family members, and it was a splendid time...
My folks would be thrilled to death to have another grandchild close by...that would make 12, 11 living for them. With 8 under the age of 4.
Wow, I hadn't really thought about that aspect until just now. My sister, in Chicago, has 3 under 3 (don't go there), and had a stillborn about 7 years ago. MissionaryMan now has 2, aged 2 and 3 days, and 5 weeks. We have 2 under 3...and if I'm pregnant again, that would make the 8th in less than 4 years. The other 3 are over 10.
And on that note, I'm going to go eat more chocolate while I can...SIGH
2 comments:
I absolutely HATE it when people say, "Don't you know what causes that?" or "Haven't you figured out how to prevent that?" It makes me want to scream! Most of it we've only gotten in a joking fashion, but not all of it. Busha wasn't too happy to hear B.B. was on the way. #1 Son was only 9 months old when we found out, so I can see her issue, but it still was tough on me.
If you are, you can handle it, honey. It turned out I was really 12 weeks along with B.B. when we found out. So #1 Son was only 6 months old when I got pregnant.
I do have a question. Why are they trying to make you cycle again? Are you still nursing Tiny Princess? Am I being too nosey?
((((kork))))
Sending up good thoughts and prayers for you.
And really sending up prayers for the inlaws that their tongue is filled with light and love and doesn't spew negativity.
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